A so called Lucky Times at an Unlucky Day......

I was too tired last night and I slept late - at around 1 am. Oh gosh, I only had 20 minutes to get ready before going to college. My mom first had to bring my younder sister to school, then only drop me to college. That's why I need to woke up early. Without realizing that I had forgotten to bring my house keys and my phone, I had left the house with my mom. When I realized, it was too late. I'm that kind of person can't "live" with my phone. Oh gosh, I felt so uneasy this morning. Besides, I usually don't wear watches and it had been replaced by my phone. Now, the only way I can know what time it is now was to depend on my iPod - luckily my iPod was with me. Not only this, my college locker key was hanged with my house key, so that means I forgot about my locker key too. The spare one was with Adrian. That happened because I forgot to take it after opening locker last week. What a forgettful girl I am..... Luckily, the locker was empty, and I can just wait for Adrian and take back my key from him. Hopefully, he bring it. It is 9.07 am now, I need to go for class now. Just forget everything that had happened this morning and concentrate in class. DON'T CARE ABOUT THE PHONE, JOEY!! Great, time to go.

Uneasy feeling during the first day of school

As what had mentioned, this was the first day of my last semester. I entered 2 classes but they ended up with 2 different outcomes.
The first one was pretty fun. I met back my previous lecturer and I was pretty excited to get to learn new stuff from him again. Besides, I have enough confident to approach a high distinction for this subject......if possible, but I will try my best and I wont let him down.
The second class was a total opposite from the first class. Her introduction of the subject was considered O.K. to me. In fact, this subject is more to analyzing numbers and making decisions. I'm sure I can cope with that. Later on, she mentioned about accounting and the four big companies. Being as one of the future accountants, I hardly know any one of the big four approaches while she had also mentioned that those who are interested in accounting SHOULD know this. At the very moment, I was wondering, am I suitable or well-prepared enough to hold on my current ambition to be a professional accountant and own a accountant firm in future? In the past, the answer was very obvious and it was a big, proud YES. But now, I really dont know.
I admit that I'm that kind of person who easily being influenced by other people's words. Its just sometimes I cant think and my mind will be blank.
I need opinions from others. I hope I could find some answers regarding to this.
Somehow, I think I should change my mindset. Be more open-minded to other people's words to avoid hard feelings in myself. Sometimes, I just cant do that, especially talking about my future.
I really afraid I had chosen the wrong future. No doubt that I have lost some of my confidence in me. What am I going to do?! Stick to me current dream or choose another path?
I really hope he was here with me......I just need someone to stay beside me now......

Gotta start studying!!

Today is my first day at college after 2 weeks semester break. Well, I'm now at the computer lab, doing nothing while waiting for my gang of friends. This is what happen when you are too early at school. No one is going to be this early when he or she knows that his or her first class is at 9.30am. Anyway, I thought of joining my friends in their marketing class even though I dint register for that subject, just for fun while waiting for time to pass. Yet, I dint and ended up writing my blog here. Sometimes, you will wonder why you have the intention to do those crazy and stupid things. What if you get caught? Sometimes, I just dun dare to take the risk.
On the other hand, I bought some souvenirs and snacks from beijing for my friends today. Hope they tell me that they like it even though they dont like it. Weird, why am I saying this?? Forget it!
First day of my third semester for foundation course, which is also the last semester, I'm ready to receive any challenges from the lecturers. I'm still with the same gang of people in this sem and in most classes. Yet, I'm still hoping to make a new bunch of friends.
It is 8.21am now and I'm still waiting for Andrea. I think I got to go now and will be writing in few days time because I think I will be quite busy after school started.

Welcome to the Year 2008!

Well, time really flies. A year has passed just like that. Anyway, I did have a very good time on the last day of year 2007.
I had my first step into the new shopping world - PAVILION. 4 of us were there, including him. We went for the movie - Alvin & the Chipmunk, and it was the cutest, funniest and most adorable creature I have ever met. On the other side, I think not much people were aware of the existence of the GSC at Pavilion. Tickets for all the shows at all times were available while at Times Square, it was a total opposite. Anyway, we did enjoy the movie.
He was there with me and I was very happy because there has been 2 weeks we dint meet each other and this hadnt had happened since 3 years back. We used to meet each other at least once a week but now I need to get used to what is happening now.
Anyway, after show. We dint plan to wait for 12am as he planned to go back early. So, I followed my aunt back to her house that night.
Well, that's the end of year 2007. Let us say Hello to year 2008!!
新的一年, 新的开试, 新的愿望!
Joey, 加油! 加油!
The only hope I have for this year is,
Be who I am and do what should be done!!

难以说出的心情

我最近的心情比较反复, 有时好, 有时坏, 有时开心无比, 有时很寂寞, 很想找一个人陪伴着自己. 自从认识他了之后, 我觉得自己是世界上最幸运的那一个. 我开始变得很依赖他. 在这几年里, 我有什么不开心的, 想不通的, 或者是一些生活上的小决定, 我都会第一就去问他, 向他那意见. 一直到我们在一起, 我们也和往常一样, 很开心, 很快乐. 这是因为我们两个还读着书, 所以时间变动比较容易, 没那么紧逼.
现在, 他必须工作了. 没办法在读书因为经济问题. 他也转了几份工, 终于找到一个适合自己的了. 这也可以说是一种安慰. 但是有时侯的我会不开心, 觉得很寂寞. 有时侯晚上时会掉眼泪. 自从我上个星期从北京旅行回来之后, 我们两个都没办法见面. 他这一份工需要他从早做到晚, 连睡觉的时间都少了. 看他那么辛苦, 我也很心痛. 不过, 有时侯的我也瞒开心的. 他比以前积极了很多, 他会常常去模仿成功人士的做法来让自己有出人头地的一天. 他甚至有想过和我组织一个家庭. 不过, 这也是以后的事吧! 说真的, 我也很盼望有这样的一天.
现在的我的确是有点闷, 从早到晚无所事事的, 所以才会胡思乱想. 等到下个星期开学了以后, 有功课让我忙了, 时间就会过的很快. 半年之后, 等他的工做稳定下来以后, 我们就会有比较多的时间在一起了. 我多么盼望那一天快点到.
和他在一起后, 我都没想过其他人, 或盼望我爱情生活中有什么变化. 这是因为我的心情已经定下来了, 而我的心也完完全全的给了他. 我甚至想带他去见我的家人. 不过, 我知道现在还不是时候. 总而言之, 我对这分感情, 和他的爱, 是难以形容的.
不知道他会不会看到我所写的呢? 他会有什么反应呢?

Fun Outing with the Girlz

Today, the ARGS girls had had an outing at Times Square. Although it was tiring, we did take a lot of photos - at least some memories for all of us. We had a chat during lunch and we shared unexpected things that had happened together. I have come to know that strange relationships are surrounding us now and being as their friends, we just need to accept that. It is their choice and we hardly could do anything to stop it.
After lunch we had a walk in the complex(which I used to walk with him quite often before he started working), I had a bad feeling and I felt like I wanted to repeat what he and I have done during the past lovely and memorable days - walking with him all around the complex, go for movies at the cinema as often as watching television at home. I know that I just need to understand as now he needs to work and earn as much as he can before he couldnt work in the future. Anyway, the bad feeling just went through for a few seconds and then it went back to normal thing again. I have also been told that one of my friends is having a tough college life and she dint not feel like going back to school again. But I have a different thought, I hope my new semester could start earlier as the heavy workload would push me on in my life without daydreaming all the time and make myself sad.
At the end of the day, I did know a lot from them and we are sure to be keeping in touch in the future. I'm looking forward to the next gathering on next Wednesday and more people will attend on that day.

Lonely Christmas

Well, I dont really celebrate Christmas. Yet, my family has done some visiting from one house to another. Quite tiring for me and I dont really like, especially when comes to visiting those homes which were full of unknown strangers. You dont really talk much and eventually feel bored facing them for hours. There was another sad thing during this lonely Christmas, I dint receive any presents. Only a lovely kiss through the air from him and nothing else. What a day...... boring day I could say...... My only wish for this year Christmas would be, "I wish the next Christmas will be better with more joy and presents."